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My last week as a turd. Hopefully.

My friend Courtney, who is easily one of the most naturally gorgeous people I know, has talked me into potentially making an ass of myself. Again. You see, Courtney has a baby who is almost a year old now, and … Continue reading

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Beneath The Surface

I keep thinking about all those stupid metaphors that talk about the work that goes on beneath the surface. The graceful duck that glides along the surface of a pond, furiously paddling its webbed feet underneath the water… The deceptive … Continue reading

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Truth In Blogging: Some People Are Bitches

I’m not perfect. None of you are surprised to hear that, I know.  But my point is that not only am I not perfect, but I have no desire to appear perfect.  Not to you or anyone. There’s too much … Continue reading

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Living Without Trust. Or Control.

It wasn’t easy for me to make the decision to trust again. He asked for one more chance, and I counted up all the one more chances that had already been given.  And blown.  I sat in the dark with … Continue reading

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Monetizing Pain

I spent my weekend at a conference about making money online. Correction. I spent half my weekend sitting in a conference about making money online thinking, what the hell am I doing here?, and sending an incessant amount of snarky, … Continue reading

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The Ocean Doesn’t Care

“It doesn’t matter if you go to the ocean to fill up a thimble or a bucket, the ocean doesn’t care” – Wayne Dyer There is no better place to ask questions than beside the ocean. Because the ocean doesn’t … Continue reading

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What Now?

I’m sitting on a fourth floor balcony overlooking the Atlantic Ocean.  I’m looking at the beach, listening to the waves, but I haven’t stepped foot on it yet. I haven’t stepped foot much of anywhere this weekend.  It’s after 3:00 … Continue reading

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In which I quote Dora and the Bible and reassure you that I’m fine. Basically.

I know it’s hard to read about someone else’s pain. Well, unless you’re an asshole, I suppose. But for most people, coming face to face with someone’s heartache and fear and doubts – and not being able to do a … Continue reading

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Apocalypse

This past week has, without a doubt, been the single worst week of my life. Up to this point. Because I am not so stupid as to tempt the gods. It has been worse than the week my mother and … Continue reading

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You’ll pretty much just scratch your head and say “WTF? Did she buy a sailboat?” and I’ll say “no, but yes, exactly.”

I’m struggling with reality. Not in the sense that I’m hallucinating or thinking I’m Marie Antoinette or that my cat is telling me to build it so that they will come.  I’m not hearing voices, however much I’ll admit to … Continue reading

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